The concept of Purgatory both terrifies me and gives me hope at the same time. At my age, I am trying my hardest not to rack up any more mortal sin. I know that they can be absolved in the confessional, but that the temporal punishment must be dealt with in Purgatory. It's the unknown amount of time that this will take, to be purged, which frightens me. I wonder if we're cognizant in Purgatory as to how long we're going to be there. Would it be better to know, or to not know? Will we be aware of the passage of time there, and how close we're getting to our release? I guess only God knows. I worry about silly things like this though.
When we receive a penance, we often risk dismissing it as frivolous, almost inconsequential. At best, we know part of our guilt; God knows fully. What we miss in our perception is that the light penance we receive is evidence - if not proof - of God's mercy. The foundation for this is the thought that, without God's mercy, we would long ago have been suffering in the flames we have earned. But yet, we are not! Each breath we take is a direct gift of love. The Lord brought us to life and sustains every moment of it. He is patient, will that no one perish.
Purgation is spiritual surgery, excising the tumor; the malignancy that we have brought upon ourselves. Yet, knowing that we have been judged worthy, and with absolute assurance that we shall soon enjoy eternal Beatitude, is not any level of pain almost inconsequential by comparison? Best to suffer s penance in the here and now, as God permits it within a framework which we can comprehend and relate to the temporal nature of our lives.
Prayer takes only so much time. Restitution takes only so much money. All penance is in time and that time will come to its end. We know when our obligation is fulfilled. That is the source of the hope we have. In contrast, Purgatory seems open-ended, undefined, nebulous. It may seem daunting, frightening, even horrific. Yet, we must always and everywhere be mindful that this very process, this very state, originates in God's infinite desire that we spend eternity with Him.
First, fear of death is conquered. After that, and fear of purification is pacified, such that purgation is desired.